What the Funk?!

So I must confess, I'm in a funk. Not happy with somethings, just barely getting by with others. I am excited to be going on a vacation to my Grandparent's/Mom's place for 2 weeks! Maybe jaunt in the woods will help me feel better. I do know going hunting will allow me to let off some ggrrrrss. It's been a while since I shot something. That's a good thing though when I'm at home....lol. So I'm watching Intervention. It's about this guy who is a heroin addict. His parents so desperately want him to be well and gain a life of recovery with Christ. The guy feels empty, judged, angry, and in pain. Well, he and I share 2 things, feeling empty and pain. As much as he is addicted to heroin, I'm addicted to myself. What a scary thing to loose control. I believe that God creates each of us with our gifts that are different from anyone else. I was created with a gift of creativity Whether good or bad, I can dream up some stuff! Sometimes it actually gets put on paper or my guitar or the wall at my house. With that I can create this bubble of "unreality" in my mind and heart. It's a hard thing to step out of too. So, here I am trying to step out and change what only I can change, ME. Today I started a new diet and no matter what the others eat in my house I will refuse to bend that way. My health and my son's care depends on it! So while I will try to change my body, I'm going to let Jesus change my heart again and make it healthy. Less dreaming and more of planting myself in the reality of His Word. My true love story isn't in this world or with any person, but it needs to be of His Word. He has a plan for me and I want in on it!


Hey you, the real you, I know you and love you so much I made a plan just for you. It's not to hurt you or make you live a life pain, but it's to shape you and make you holy. I love you. -Jeremiah 29:11 (mpw)