To Be, Or Not To Be.....Thankful

Thanksgiving is this week. I love any holiday! But, I especially love the ones that involve whole families getting together. Problem is, I don't have anything I've ever dreamt about. Certainly not the family I'd thought I'd have, etc.... While I'm thankful, I guess I'm REALLY not very thankful. I confess. So while I'M doing all the work decorating, cleaning, cooking, and hosting...I've always just sulked inside about how it sucks to not be happy. Well, I got a little....(by little I mean gigantic slap in the face).....nudge this morning to start making my heart right with God. So, I'll just share the convo....


Here's what God said to me this morning from Psalms 105:3 and 5

hey real you, I know things get tough and you don't have all that you think you want, but I want you to start rejoicing in My Name. Remember, I HAVE performed miracles for you before and I continue to bless you with a miracle every time Awesome smiles.


I responded.....


Lord Jesus, i'm so sorry for forgetting to just rejoice in Your powerful Name. Show me ways i can do that alone and in front of others. i know i ask for so much concerning Awesome and most of the time i forget that it was You who kept him alive when the doctor told me he was dead. It was You who restored his joy and personality when the doctors gave me no hope of an intelligent son. It's You that puts a smile on his face at the right times every day! Lord Jesus please forgive me of my forgetfulness! You have given me a miracle and I keep forgetting that Awesome is just that! Lord Jesus, thank You isn't good enough to tell You how grateful i am that You have done such a miracle for me. Please forgive me of my self pity and unhappiness for what i think i don't have when clearly You have given me more than every thing. You have made me thankful today! Thank You! i will tell everyone today! <3- the real me.


Now, I wasn't successful in telling everyone today about Him making me thankful this morning. And shame on me for not doing it. But, there's always tomorrow...and I did just tell you....I pray you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving!